Thursday 21 April 2011

Syakira syakira....


Assalammualaikum...

It's mid April already!! This time people are mostly 'poket kering'...me likewise hehehe...even sekarang kalau masuk kedai2 jer mmg window shopping ajerlaa...talking about 'poket kering' just now, i remembered when me, hubby and my eldest gegurl Syakira went to Mid Valley Mall end of last month...coincidently me and hubby decided to send both of our cars serviced by our regular 'pomen' - Ah Meng at Kuchai Lama...hubby bought new Hush Puppies sandal replacing the old ones...alang2 mr.hubby nk belanja so ingat nk kibau jgk sepasang deep purple stilletto 'gedik' which was at 50% off...malangnya the display itself which is my right size is the last pair!! Hubby suruh ambik...What?! Taknaklaa aku beli kasut display!! Mana tahu dalam berpuluh2 orang dok try kasut tu ada yg kaki busuk ke, kaki kurap ke...ishhhh!! Melepas....Lupa lak, we went to MV by taxi and that was the first experience for Syakira in the cab...unlike typical kids who shows typical excitement macam lompat2 ke...tunjuk muka ceria2 ke...Syakira ni kalau apa2 yg dia experience for the first time she tends to be very very calm and observant...only then she will show her excitement...in fact kalau dia dapat mainan atau hadiah baru pun macam tu...

However, this posting is not about that day...it's about my lovely strawberry shortcake ni...well, my daughter ni has quite an interesting personality...born in the middle of November 2003, masa dia kecik2 dulu agak susah nak jaga...kuat menangis dari lahir sampai umur nak masuk 3 tahun...by 3 years old she started to babble and soon after she managed to say words properly without 'pelat'...i still remember before she went to IIUM Montessori at the age of 5, hubby used to write words from the tv ads such as 'Honda', 'Barbie', 'Tomato', 'Panasonic' on papers and taught Syakira to say those words...i think people called this 'Phonetics' i guess...learn words from sounds...and during her montessori days, she managed to speak English fluently and to my surprise...with an American accent i tell you!! She memorized some basic du'a(s) like du'a makan, du'a nak masuk tidur, doa kesejahteraan dunia & akhirat...quite a few jgklaa...

Personality-wise - she's quite shy and reserved...very opinionated at times and very very sensitive...hatinya agak senang pecah kalau kena tegur or critique...especially bab 'tembam' or 'gemuk'...huh? as of now she's quite dependent to this one girl at school, namanya Maizatul Hanis...and this Maizatul seems very protective over Syakira kalau dia jadi mangsa buli dgn kwn2 lain...mmmm Syakira ni jenis yg bukan melawan if someone tried to make fun of her...at most dia akan menangis...yes! she's a cry baby type...kadang2 rasa geram jgk kenapalaa anak aku ni tak pandai nk stand up for herself...but hubby selalu remind yg kita jgn overprotective sgt dgn anak nnt social integration dia terganggu...so far prestasi Syakira di sekolah baik2 ajer...walaupun pencapaian paling tinggi di sekolah setakat dapat no. 5 dlm kelas dan keseluruhan but she managed to score 100% in most of the core subjects...hey! im not expecting my children to be a straight A students anyway...as far as i could remember during my schooldays back then...my situation was in the opposite because im the only child in the family and my parents were always pushing me to get the best grades in school...which i did Alhamdulillah but im not going to apply the same to my children because i believe that they could mould themselves to be what they want to or to pursue what they are good at...with my guidance and supports of course! To me, mmg budak2 zaman skg pandai2 belaka tapi kalau akhlak tak senonoh ie melawan cakap mak ayah & cikgu, buli kawan2 kt sekolah etc. no point getting good grades though...no pun intended!


Dari tapak kaki sebesar ibu jari dan sekarang almost nak sama tinggi dgn mamanya, Syakira's life journey so far has been exciting and full of surprises...recently she asked if she could held her 8th birthday bash at KFC...mmm well, 'Insyaallah' i told her...

Wednesday 2 March 2011

Anakku 'autistik'....

Salah satu sbb mengapa aku terpanggil utk menulis...to express feelings, experience (not much though), hope and anticipation on this predicament...but whatever that is, aku bersyukur kepadaNya kerana dikurniai seorang 'anak istimewa' yang membuatkanku semakin ingin menjadi manusia yg lebih mengingati kebesaran dan kekuasaanMu Ya Allah...



Ameer Luqman, the 2nd out of 3...has fascinating, cheerful personality I must say...kami menggelarkan dia 'hensem'...lirikan mata yg menawan...sebaris gigi yg agak 'cute' (that's his two Bugs Bunny-like upper-front teeth) dan sangat 'hyper'...but his unpleasant side definitely - temper-tantrum...temperamental-wise is sort of heredity...from who? ME! (Yes...i can easily get temperamental then...but after i got married it depends on occasion and timing...thank you hubby!)...tantrum-wise (and this is NOT a normal children's tantrum) it is one of the features of autistic kid...diagnosed as 'Autism Spectrum Disorder' and ADHD in December 2010, Kaaabooooooommm!!! I felt like the world has turned against me...WHY?WHY?WHY? Tetapi aku masih punya iman..."Subhanallah...jikalau benar kamilah antara insan yg terpilih, kami bersyukur dan redho...namun kurniakanlah kepada kami kekuatan dan kesabaran yg tiada batasnya agar kami dapat memelihara amanahMu ini...manusia sebaik2 kejadian..."


Kalau nak flashback from the moment we discovered something 'different' with Ameer...i think it is more or less sama jer kot mcm parents2 lain yg ada anak istimewa mcm ni...but since Ameer is the second, we always make his kakak as point of references in view of his development milestones...and we have made a wrong decision! I always know that girls and boys are like 'apple' and 'banana'...cannot be compared with each other...si Kakak started talking when she's nearly 3...quite late for a girl but... once she talks...not that she never stop talking but she talks like adults...dan tak pelat langsung!! (but unlike kids with Asperger syndrom laa) So we thought, Ohh! Ameer mungkin lambat mcm kakaknya...kot? But things weren't turn out the way we've expected...by 4 Ameer hasn't talked or even communicated with us...and he likes to make a repetitive sounds...behaviour-wise, he refuses any 'changes' in his routine...hyper-sensitive to emotions surrounding him...contoh: kalau kakak/adik dia menangis/kena marah dia pun akan rasa 'tempias'nya dan dia akan turut sama menangis...dan kalau mama dia 'bad mood' dia pun akan bad mood jugak...


Enough said...life goes on indeed...but having Ameer as part of my life has definitely made me a stronger and better person than before (I used to consider myself 'strong' bila mama passed away 11 yrs ago) while he's deemed as 'special kid' now tetapi kasih sayangku takkan berbelah bagi utk 2 orang lagi...si kakak yg sekarang dah darjah 2 memerlukan perhatian yg tak kurang lebihnya...begitu jgk si adik yg baru 4 bulan lebih melihat dunia yg masih lagi jauh perjalanan hidupnya Insyaallah...

Rabbi Yassir Wala Tuassir Ya Karim.... 

http://www.autism.com/fam_whatisautism.asp 

Tuesday 1 March 2011

Assalammualaikum...and Welcome!

Selamat datang ke dunia bloggers, Syeem!!

How do i feel? Excited...terrified at the same time...percubaan pertama menjadi sebahagian dari komuniti bloggers...Insyaallah akan aku manfaatkan sepenuhnya kemudahan ini dgn sebaik2nya...not to display this blog as a 'Dear Diary' kind of thing...to me, kalau nak tulis diari biarlah dgn cara yg lebih tradisional i.e. beli buku diari...which reminds me of my childhood-teenagehood days back then...(ada ke perkataan 'teenagehood' tu? -wink-)

For the record, i dedicate this blog especially to my 3 lovely children (for now...hope to have more in future...hihi) - Nursyakirah, Ameer Luqman and Adam Muhammad...and a wonderful husband cum soulmate, Mohd Afzan...syukur Ya Allah atas segala nikmat dan pemberianMu ini...have carried a title of 'mother' for nearly 8 years (and hopefully will have the next 8...and 88...jika umurku panjang) aku masih lagi belajar...belajar dan belajar...dan Insyaalah apa2 shj ilmu yg kuperolehi akan dikongsi bersama...



And i say...meskipun di mana aku berada, di tahap mana diriku ini, peliharalah hatiku semoga sifat sombong, bongkak, angkuh, sifat-sifat keji dan dilaknat olehMu janganlah ia ada di sanubariku ini...Ya Allah Ya Rabbal Alamin....